Monthly Archives: October 2011

Remembering the Little Ones we Miss

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Free Remembrance Cupcake for October 15thIn honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, Calvin’s Cupcakes is offering this free PAIL Cupcake for you to use for your baby/babies. Just click on the image to go to Calvin’s Cupcakes, where you can get the the high resolution version.

In addition to my Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen, there are so many babies that have been in my thoughts and in my heart since I joined this club. Here are just some of the sweet little ones whose families I’ve been blessed to meet (this doesn’t even come close to all of their names, and I fit all as much as I could):

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day 2011

I apologize if I didn’t fit your little one’s this time around. Being sick made less prepared for today than I wanted to me, but do know I’m thinking of you and your babies.

<3, Crystal Theresa

Bumble Bee and Daddy (PG Update)

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Louie holding Bumble Bee's ultrasound picsFirst, thank you so much for all of your encouragement, support, thoughts, and prayers. We are so grateful and so overwhelmed by all the love that we’re receiving for us and our babies.

Second, as you can tell from this photo, our ultrasound went well. We were able to see Bumble Bee today (fetal pole) and the sweet flicker of our baby’s heartbeat, which was beating at an amazing 132 bpm. I am still taking it in. I still can’t believe baby number four is alive and well in my womb. I hope, I pray I can nourish and sustain this little love to term and hold Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen’s crying sibling in my arms next summer.

Thank you again for carrying us through the anxiety leading up to this ultrasound and for walking this journey with us.

<3, Crystal Theresa

Less than 18.5 hours until the ultrasound

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We’re going to see Bumble Bee again tomorrow afternoon, and I should be 6 weeks and 4 days along. This is around the time that we should be able to see the fetal pole and a heartbeat. And that is what I really, really, really want to see.

I know that I have no control over the universe. I know that I cannot will my baby to live if it’s not meant to be, but I have to believe that everything will be okay, that I can carry this pregnancy to term, and that our fourth child will be the one to come home with us. I have to keep those thoughts ahead of the fear.

So I have a request. Will you lift us up with prayers, positive energy, and good vibes? Can you surround us with light and keep us in your thoughts? Can you send out the the intention that Louie and I will feel love and comfort and peace no matter what tomorrow brings?

Thank you so much.

<3, Crystal Theresa

Not-so-Wordless Wednesday

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Prometrium Capsules - 200 mg

For the past 8 days, I’ve been sticking one of these capsules in me when I wake up in the morning and before I got to bed at night. I don’t like it. It’s uncomfortable and messy and sometimes it hurts. But I will keep doing this for the next 237 days if it means I can bring my Bumble Bee home.

<3, Crystal Theresa

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