Every time I watch this video, I am reduced
to big, heavy tears.
Tears of missing Calvin, Rainbow, and Gaelen,
Of wanting them here—alive.
Of wanting Calvin and Rainbow nestled on either side of me and Gaelen still growing safely in my belly.
Tears that question if Louie and I will ever have
living children a living child
or if I can even get pregnant again.
Tears that mourn
my diminishing fertility.
Tears of jealousy
and of self-resentment for feeling this envy.
ok I just bawled my eyes out- good song and so true
Aww, hugs, hon. I hope it was a good kind of “letting it out” cry. We need that sometimes.
This video is such a tearjerker. I am sad all over again for you and Louie . I pray for you to have a take home baby all the time. ((HUGS))
I’m so sorry my beautiful friend….weeping with you…
it’s inspiring to hear a singer share her innermost feelings through her song and speaks for many of us in this unwanted journey. *hugs*
Yes! To sing of something so personal is such a powerful thing. It definitely makes me feel less alone. I hope this path of infertility ends for you soon, my friend.