Happy 1 year in heaven, Rainbow
Last Friday was Rainbow’s first angelversary* – one year since she went to heaven to be with Jesus, Calvin, and all of our other loved ones who have gone on. Here are are some photos I wanted to share in honor of my sweet baby on her special day:
In the top row, is a sweet card that Meredith’s mom, Sarita, sent us (this is Rainbow’s first card ever!). The dragonfly ornament was a gift from my BBC/MMC secret santa, Jeanette, and the star ornament is from, Katie, for the Remembering Together Ornament Swap.
In the bottom row, is a set of my only belly pics of Rainbow, taken just a few days after my BFP; not much of a baby bump at all, but I know she’s there! Next is a rainbow dragonfly just for Rainbow, from Alyssa and her mommy, Ann.
Louie and I are so grateful for everyone’s thoughtfulness, for the “Likes” and ♥’s and ((hugs))’s and the sweet messages and prayers on Facebook, for the candle my mother-in-law lit for our precious girl, and for the other gifts we received. Although, Rainbow’s angelversary also means that it’s been one year since we lost her and since I was last pregnant, instead of being filled with loneliness and heartache, it became a day of celebration. And it’s because of you. To know that Rainbow is loved and remembered, to have her sweet little life acknowledge, that is all we need; that is all we ever needed for our babies (and I think a lot of babyloss parents will agree). Thank you so much for lifting us up and filling Rainbow’s anniversary with sweetness.
By the way, this is my 100th post!
It wasn’t until I was getting ready to write about Rainbow that I realized it would be my 100th post. A lot of other mommas use the countdown to their 100th blog entry as a way to let their readers/followers ask them questions and get to know them better. Even though I’m already at 100, I thought I would do the same. So feel free to ask me a question (or two or three!) in the comments, and I will do my best to answer.
In addition to answering your questions, since this is my 100th post, and since it is also a celebration of Rainbow’s heavenly anniversary, I thought I would also give one of these away:
They are handmade baubles (by yours truly). Each one comes on short, clear elastic thread, so you can easily attach it to a zipper (backpack or diaper bag?) or add it to a keychain. You can also use it as a scrapbook tag, as a gift embellishment, or a simple pendant. Each one is made of a wooden disc that has a pink and white polka-dotted background, a purple flower, and the word “lovely,” “pretty,” or “sweetness” written on it. The top is sealed with resin.
One winner will be randomly chosen, and the word is your choice. Feel free to add which you’d like (lovely, pretty, or sweetness) to your question.
My darling Rainbow, you were our spark of hope. Even though you aren’t with us, you will always be our “rainbow baby,” our precious blessing after the storm of losing your big brother. Thank you for showing me what it means to have a mother’s heart, for showing me it’s capacity to grow and fill with even more love. Your time on earth was so short – too short for me and your daddy – but I know that it’s because you just finished your earthly purpose much quicker than most. I love you.
*Just as an aside, I know that our lost children do not literally turn into angels – that angels and humans are totally different creatures. I know that neither Calvin nor Rainbow have become angels (though I imagine, if they wanted wings they could have them). A lot of babyloss parents use the term “angelversary” or “angel day,” because, like the angels, our babies are in heaven and watch over us.